Cool Girl

I'm not the cool girl you thought I was Too needy, too clingy, too sensitive, too flawed Looking for reassurance that I'm good enough Looking for acceptance from everyone but me I can be sad, but not depressed I can be mad, but not outraged I can be happy, but not ecstatic I can be …

Writings

I don’t understand why I went or what I was doing there, but that’s not the point. The point is that I was there, and for whatever reason I wasn’t leaving. I stood by the gate and slowly undressed myself. I approached the man standing at the opening, handing him my clothes in exchange for …

Bonnaroo

Finals week is ending and I’ve just about lost my mind. Economic graphs and accounting budgets are the only constant figures inside my cranium. I can’t sleep due to nerves and drank just enough coffee so that I have the overwhelming sensation of rushing waterfalls moving south of my pelvis. I turn in the test …

Neil Whitworth

In a large, spacious church building there is a man in the very front pew on his knees with his head bent over and his hands folded neatly into a position of prayer. The man looks entirely hopeless with tears in his eyes. It’s apparent that at one point in time he had given up …

Minnie Adams

A car is sitting at the bottom of a cliff upside down. It was reported to state troopers as going off the cliff at over ninety miles an hour. It has caught fire and is burning to ashes. Police arrive on the scene, coming down the side of the cliff in helicopters. The body in …

Frankfurt Blair

Blood is everywhere. The garage is covered in it: the red, oozing liquid caressing its way through every fault in the floor and under every crevice. Four college-aged men dressed in all black are splattered in red. Two of the men are sitting against walls holding their heads in their hands, while the other two …

Java Fang

I wake up in a hospital. I wake up screaming. I'm in a hospital and I'm screaming. Thoughts are racing through my brain like streams race towards rivers. Why am I here? Why am I screaming? Did I have an accident? Did I have a nightmare? Who put me in here? How did I get …

Ultimately

I don’t want my life to be a preamble or a precursor for some extravagant finale. The finale is right here, right now. What is everyone preparing for? School prepares for work; work prepares for retirement; retirement prepares for death. The only preparation that can exist in life is the acceptance of that – death. …

Note to Self

Through the vessel from point A guiding you to point B, the vessel from point B guiding you to point C, and the vessel from point C guiding you to the centre it’s presumed that you are now able to regain point A through the centre, therefore completing the cycle. Obtaining the centre is additionally essential to your success …

5am

I don’t know who I was before audio meditation took over my natural existence. It’s like I’m floating into some oblivious paranormal universe where every extremity is being reached in a perplexed climax of a blue sun and yellow cloud. I wish I were a starfish, no, a blow fish in the shape of a …